Thinking Out Loud


So as you all know I started writing my book about my experience with domestic violence, the chapter I am currently working on so far is one of the most difficult chapters. It has taken me a long time to write what I have written so far. It has opened up a wound I thought was healed. I have realized that there has not really been full closure on this aspect of my life. Many tears have been shed while writing previous chapters, so many unanswered questions. So many “Why’s?” and I know those will never be answered, and even if there was a chance for those “why’s” to be answered I know that they would not be truthful answers anyways.

This book is not only about my experience with domestic violence, this book touches on so many sensitive subjects in my life. It is graphic and detailed. I want the readers to feel what I have felt. I believe that that is the best way a writer can write. To bring the reader back in time and travel with me through my life as if they were right there with me.

At the same time I am struggling right now, I am facing things from my past that I never fully dealt with. Emotions about things that have happened and am wondering why I have these feelings. I try to continue typing through this chapter, I get one or two sentences out and I shut it down.

You know, I go through life looking at where I am now and where I came from. Amazed at how I got this far. I get through day by day with a smile on face just loving and enjoying every moment. I look at my dreams and see myself achieving them and see doors of opportunities starting to open. I’ve connected with amazing people all over the world through this blog and other social media. Yet I feel stuck. I usually write blogs to inspire and encourage others but right now I could really use some inspiration and encouragement.

I guess this blog is just a venting blog.



4 Comments Add yours

  1. I’m glad you liked my blog because I couldn’t figure out how to find you on my new android. The WordPress site is different and awkward to master but I’m getting there. Funny that you refer to your blog as just a venting blog when in the beginning when I could hardly express what I thought or felt I knew that I could come to your site and just read blog after blog and getting a better understanding of what I was feeling & experiencing. So your venting is healing, understanding and validation for someone like me.
    Keep up the good work!!❤❤

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    1. Thank you J, I needed this comment, sometimes I just don’t know how I’m feeling. I am glad that you still find my babble blogs helpful 💜💜💜

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      1. Often babbling is full of pure honesty!!❤❤

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  2. Cody Mitts says:

    I’m right there with you. I have found that when I write something it’s often just a place for me to do some venting. Hopefully it has been therapeutic for you!

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